We are home!
Well, truth be told, we've been home for a while now.
Two weeks into residence, and it comes to my attention that i've ignored this thing for a while.
And, as often happens when a thing like this 'comes to my attention', this realization has been on my mind rather persistently.
"Should i write in it?
Why not?
Well, i mean, i've ignored the thing for long enough, the peoples who read it are probably moved on to other blogs, so...
So?
So. So, i guess i wouldn't expect to get any readers.
AhA! i knew you were just a whore for the views!
No! I really think i learned something this year! I feel like i've undergone some drastic, life altering epiphany...and...and-
And you want people to read it.
Maybe.
So?
So."
So.
I have, y'know.
Mind altering epiphanies going cheap this year, apparently, cause if i'm having one it's either cause i'm a person pre-disposed to landmark mind-altering epiphanies with some attempt at synthesizing my recent life's experience into a "very special episode of Blossom" style 'what have we learned' segment
...
or this just happens to everybody and i'm just trying to share mine with you folks.
Anyhow.
It's about the Job, mostly.
And that is that, quite simply, it has become the job.
I have recently neglected my time on this blog because, for just a minute there, i forgot to look beyond what i did for a living as anything more than that.
Being an actor has become a de facto; and now i need to start being other things.
(Like a grown up?)
((Shut up, brain.))
I mean to say that, this job has been an incredible experience for me because it has given me the Experience of trying out this whole working actor thing and
it's great, and i want more of it, and now that i know that i am, in some sense, capable of it and want to pursue it as a means of making my living...
i guess i can get my shit together, now.
I'm moving to NYC in August.
Before that, i'll be working as a counselor for the American Shakespeare Theatre Camp.
Both of these things excite the hell out of me.
I look forward to having a crack at being a long term, full time educator.
I am grateful as all hell that i'll have a chance to do it in the company of a herd of young people who are, presumably, really happy to be there, too.
I hope that, between acting as a chaperone spliced in with equal parts R.A. and truant officer, i will also have the opportunity to learn about the upcoming collegiate generation, learn something about my craft, and maybe even broaden a few minds and educate a couple others.
The city is, well, is my attempt to dive headfirst into this world; i will go there and live in a city alive with potential (and rats) and try to find some part of it i can fit into (like rats and mice can fit in tight places because of flexible...everythings).
I will call this great urban expanse my home and from there i will try to keep doing this acting thing.
I'll go and do as many auditions as can fit in a life that needs to also allow for gainful employ, sleep, eating, and possibly an hour of video games every other week.
I can do this.
Or at least i can try.
I love doing this sort of thing, writing into a word processor and then throwing it into the vast and churning sea of such attempts at human connection as is our internet, so i'll put something together throughout the coming months to talk about this or that...
But this is the thing.
I have done enough of this year to say that i have been on tour, i have learned how to be better, and how to be enough.
I can live in a troupe of twelve people and survive the social microcosm that that becomes.
I loved this and will do something like it again.
And soon.
I hope.
Well, truth be told, we've been home for a while now.
Two weeks into residence, and it comes to my attention that i've ignored this thing for a while.
And, as often happens when a thing like this 'comes to my attention', this realization has been on my mind rather persistently.
"Should i write in it?
Why not?
Well, i mean, i've ignored the thing for long enough, the peoples who read it are probably moved on to other blogs, so...
So?
So. So, i guess i wouldn't expect to get any readers.
AhA! i knew you were just a whore for the views!
No! I really think i learned something this year! I feel like i've undergone some drastic, life altering epiphany...and...and-
And you want people to read it.
Maybe.
So?
So."
So.
I have, y'know.
Mind altering epiphanies going cheap this year, apparently, cause if i'm having one it's either cause i'm a person pre-disposed to landmark mind-altering epiphanies with some attempt at synthesizing my recent life's experience into a "very special episode of Blossom" style 'what have we learned' segment
...
or this just happens to everybody and i'm just trying to share mine with you folks.
Anyhow.
It's about the Job, mostly.
And that is that, quite simply, it has become the job.
I have recently neglected my time on this blog because, for just a minute there, i forgot to look beyond what i did for a living as anything more than that.
Being an actor has become a de facto; and now i need to start being other things.
(Like a grown up?)
((Shut up, brain.))
I mean to say that, this job has been an incredible experience for me because it has given me the Experience of trying out this whole working actor thing and
it's great, and i want more of it, and now that i know that i am, in some sense, capable of it and want to pursue it as a means of making my living...
i guess i can get my shit together, now.
I'm moving to NYC in August.
Before that, i'll be working as a counselor for the American Shakespeare Theatre Camp.
Both of these things excite the hell out of me.
I look forward to having a crack at being a long term, full time educator.
I am grateful as all hell that i'll have a chance to do it in the company of a herd of young people who are, presumably, really happy to be there, too.
I hope that, between acting as a chaperone spliced in with equal parts R.A. and truant officer, i will also have the opportunity to learn about the upcoming collegiate generation, learn something about my craft, and maybe even broaden a few minds and educate a couple others.
The city is, well, is my attempt to dive headfirst into this world; i will go there and live in a city alive with potential (and rats) and try to find some part of it i can fit into (like rats and mice can fit in tight places because of flexible...everythings).
I will call this great urban expanse my home and from there i will try to keep doing this acting thing.
I'll go and do as many auditions as can fit in a life that needs to also allow for gainful employ, sleep, eating, and possibly an hour of video games every other week.
I can do this.
Or at least i can try.
I love doing this sort of thing, writing into a word processor and then throwing it into the vast and churning sea of such attempts at human connection as is our internet, so i'll put something together throughout the coming months to talk about this or that...
But this is the thing.
I have done enough of this year to say that i have been on tour, i have learned how to be better, and how to be enough.
I can live in a troupe of twelve people and survive the social microcosm that that becomes.
I loved this and will do something like it again.
And soon.
I hope.
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